Hope-fullness

As I am forgiven, life is better. Of course, I keep on waiting for some bomb to drop but so far it hasn't . . . why can't I just let go and move on? Though if I knew the answer to that, I could become the world's best therapist. But we will have the family over this Friday, and I will try to get the house in final holiday shape, and maybe maybe maybe even get some Christmas cookies made. Who knows? (It's going to take some real Christmas magic for that to happen.)

At least I can cadge off my mom-in-law, who has been a baking sensation these past few weeks. She eagerly shoves her latest greatest taste sensation at me, and I feebly protest and say weak things about trying to lose my baby weight and then . . . BAM! I'm scarfing down a rich sweet wonder and wondering if it would really be so bad if I ate two?

Back before Kates, and even afterwards for a short while, I had thought that I would be back in my regular, pre-pregnancy clothes by Christmas time. OH FOOLISH ME! Boy, was I ever wrong; I had read, I had heard, and I had been told that it "takes 10 months to put it on, and it will take 10 months to take it off . . . if ever." That sounded way too pessimistic to me--and besides, right after having Kates I dropped 25 pounds (I had gained over 50 during the pregnancy). I would just keep on losing the weight. Right.

Where is my magic weight-loss fairy-godmother? Oy, there are way too many good foods out there right now. Thank goodness I don't like eggnog or I would be adding that to my guilty caloric pleasures intake list. Maybe come January I can be like any other typical person and promise to lose the weight for real. For now, life is too crazy to add the pressure of good food denial. If I only eat till I am full (ha ha!) and watch my portion sizes there just might be hope come the new year. Maybe.

Not that it matters all that much . . . Kates does a stellar job of keeping everyone's attention on her. My beautiful baby is my best accomplishment for this year. And no, that's totally not bragging.